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By Sandi | July 12, 2010
When David and I met, we both had blogs. And, as a single-parent, Captain Stinky was my social life. Pathetic, I know, but I was okay with it. I had you, Internet, for venting and sobbing and laughing with, and I had convinced myself I didn’t need anyone else. Fast forward a bit, and David and I met (obviously I’d gotten over the whole “don’t need anyone” idea). A little more of the fast forward button, and we got married. Fast forward another (very little) bit, and we were pregnant. With twins, no less. And settling into a life together that included a very bewildered Captain Stinky and pregnancy, etc. No time for anyone else but us and our families. Then the girls were born. And before they were a year old, we decided to uproot and move the entire kit-and-caboodle to Florida. And now we’re here. And the girls are almost two. And by that, I mean Terrible. Two. Times. Two. Which, of course, means that I’m going crazy and my children are often more annoying than adorable (except for times they’re sleeping, of course), and I spend most of my time saying “NO!” and trying to minimize catastrophe after catastrophe. And it’s exhausting. And most of the time, I end my day wishing night would last longer so I could have a little more time to myself, or with my husband.
So here we are in Florida, and it’s been a year, and I’ve realized something.
I. Am. Lonely.
And, other than our neighbors and a few people David works with, people pretty much scare me here. They are somewhat less than savory, and people I would never trust with my children OR myself. Certainly not BFF-material. People around here give Child Protective Services job security.
David and I have a disconnect in this area, too. I’ve been with children all day, and am so looking forward to adult conversation that I get almost giddy at the idea of him coming home. He, however, has been working all day and talking to lots of people, and just wants to decompress. So he does his thing, and I do mine in the evenings, until we both collapse, wordless in front of the TV. We try and become a couple again on the weekends.
I’ve been lamenting over this problem for weeks. Then, this morning while sitting amongst a huge pile of dirty laundry and sorting, I realized that my fill-in used to be this! Right here! A corner lot on the Internet! A place to vent, to talk things out, and even get the occasional bit of feedback or advice! And I don’t have to make sure anyone else’s house is child-proofed, or work visiting around nap-schedules!
So. I don’t know for sure yet….we’ll see how this goes. But I may be back to writing regularly.
Topics: Family, Marriage, Parenthood, Twins | 4 Comments »
July 12th, 2010 at 3:26 pm
Woohoo! I, for one, am looking forward to it!
July 12th, 2010 at 3:49 pm
Me too!!
I am sure you have already checked…but have you looked for groups that meet together regularly? Local mom’s groups, home school groups, mom’s of multiples? Some might have yahoo groups where you can get to know the people for a bit first, then plan to go to a park day with them or something and see how you mesh.
peace…
July 12th, 2010 at 11:57 pm
Well, welcome back! You’ve been through a lot of HUGE changes in the past couple of years. It’s so easy to lose yourself in kids…you definitely could use an outlet for some “me time.” I, like Osbasso, look forward to ‘seeing’ more of you here!
July 16th, 2010 at 9:54 am
I would be happy to talk adult with you.